still, just a boy
"....always been on the fast lane. i realized, i need to slow down to grow"
Monday, August 14
getting drunk at kung anu anu pa
getting drunk

yes! isa akong gimikero. i enjoy night outs, disco lights, lasers, house music, dancing, loud sounds, packed crowds... all of it, except for one thing......... i do not enjoy beer. if am out partying, either i drown myself with tequilla or vodka or sumting else but not BEER.

the reason? simple.. madali akong tamaan sa BEER

last saturday night, i went out with my friends.. my barkada to be exact. it was a relief after having one hell of a week.

because of dat, i was so in the mood for drinking and getting drunk but i wasn't expecting that we'll end up at Tiendesitas near Libis. wala akong magawa. lahat ng kasama gusto beer ang inomin. but because i was feeling so devastated and confused, hindi ko na pinansin.

there were 10 of us and only 7 was up for alcohol. so we ordered 2 barrels of san miguel strong ice, pork sisig, liempo and inihaw na bangus. (yum!yum!)

first hour of our stay i was still ok but the following minutes after that i started feeling dizzy. my best friends started noticing that ive becoming too talkative and too makulit. then, i realized tinatamaan na ako. ok na sana eh. but the band that was playing that night started playing "senti" music.

gawd! i swear i wasn't able to control myself and i broke down to tears. everybody started hugging me. ugh! sobrang nakakahiya but i did appreciated what they did. i cried siguro for 15mins at sinabayan ko pa ng kwento and emote line like.. "bakit ba siya ganun?! mahirap ba akong mahalin?" .... ngayon, ang funny nalang for me pero dat night, i really felt the pain and the alcohol that i took helped me release all my emotions..

i stopped crying lang when my bestfriend started talking to me. haaay!? super nakakahiya cause kasama nya yung date nya dat night. hahaha! tapos agaw eksena pako. hahaha

wen we ran out of beer and food, i thught was time to go, i had plans of going to makati and continue my night out there but my friends decided to continue the "inuman" at one of our friends house...

syempre dun nako bumagsak. hahaha!
siguro kung bibilangin.. i had like 11 bottles of strong ice dat night... ugh! sobra diba!!

pls dnt think of me as isang tumador cause i am so not.
ive never enjoyed beer not until dat night.

hindi ko alam but in away, i found it satisfying for somebody who's problematic and the best of all... mura lang. hahaha!

sana hindi naman ako maging alcoholic nito but one thing i can say...

getting drunk pag may problema is good, it helps u release all the emotions and helps u forget kahit sandali lang


lets fight pimples!
because the past week gave me sleepless nights and so much depression, and also dahil stressed ako, ayan... pinipimple ako.. huhuhuhu!!! kainis!
kaya to the rescue and Panoxyl hahahaha..


pupunta ba ako o hindi!??!!

every month nalang merong isang event/party na ginaganap.. at as usual, mga party friends bombard me with questions kung pupunta ba daw ako...
i promised myself di na ako masyado gigimik eh. huhuhu. this month its GodsKitchen by Bigfish. for the past 3 years lagi akong nasa event na'to, but this year kaya... punta kaya ako?! Sa totoo lang masaya naman yung event. Am sure hindi flop tong event na'to not like yung last event na in-attendan ko. haaay...
punta ba ako o hindi??? sana yayain ako ni "ano".. (hehehe!)

Friday, August 11
just woke up.. and just like the other mornings ive had during this week, ive been feeling tired, sad and gloomy. i swear, cant wait for the next week to start. am not sure whats in store for me by then but i sure wana start it right, not like the way i started it last monday. ugh!!!

believe me when i say alot of things happened during the past days... and its be oh soooo dramatic. there were so many things that im so not sure if i did correctly and decisions that am not sure if right. i think this is why am feeling this way. ugh!

anyway, last night, i was almost on the brink of breaking down because of too much depression, when two of my best friends texted me up and invited me to watch a movie. thank god they invited me for if not, im sure i've broken down to tears again,, in my room,, with coffee & smoke... the usual "emo" scene i do.

so there. watched CLICK lastnight. it came out to be a good movie. i thought its one of those brainless comedy flicks but it turned out to be a really good one. the movie even made my best girl friend teary eyed (i almost did too).....and to think its a comedy! hahahaha!

i wish i can have that same kind of remote!!!

changing topic..

today, the 11th of August, is a special day for me. officially, its the second month of knowing someone special. it must be weird for me to celebrate but being the sentimental type that i am, its something worth celebrating.

well, i know that i am the only one celebrating this day but the hell i care. its way too special for me to consider it as an ordinary day. so let me just say this.

happy 2 months!!! (hehehe!)

today, ill try to keep myself busy. i scheduled things to do to keep myself from thinking. see, when i am idle, "things" start sinking in and i dont want that to happen.

gosh! im becoming so emotional lately.. toooo emotional again. well, yeah! i know that i am emotional but whats happening lately is something not good anymore (like what my best girl friend told me).

i really cant wait for school to start. i wanna brake free from bumness!
all of this boring, unproductive days makes me feel depressive. ugh!

oh well. guess have to start doing stuffs now.

enjoy the day guys!
Wednesday, August 9
Titanic 2
came across this video while browsing YOUTUBE.. at first i thought it was a bluff but it came out it was real!!! what were they thinking making a sequel like this?!?!? ugh!

Interesting Conversation
...thanks -aey- for sending this to me... really made me think..

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, the Almighty. He asks one of his new Christian students to stand and.....

Professor: You are a Christian, aren't you, son?

Student : Yes, sir.

Prof: So you believe in God?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Prof: Is God good?

Student : Sure.

Prof: Is God all-powerful?

Student : Yes.

Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?

Student is silent.

Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?

Student :Yes.

Prof: Is Satan good?

Student : No.

Prof: Where does Satan come from?

Student : From...God...

Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student : Yes.

Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?

Student : Yes.

Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)

Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't

Student :Yes, sir.

Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)

Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?

Student : No , sir.

Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?

Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student : Yes.

Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say so that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.

Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Prof: Yes.

Student : And is there such a thing as cold?

Prof: Yes.

Student : No sir. There isn't. (The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of
heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)

Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. wouldn't you?

Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something
we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a
scientist but a preacher?

(The class is in uproar.)

Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?

(The class breaks out into laughter.)

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?.....No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your
lectures, sir?

(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.

Student : That is it sir.. The link between man & god is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.

Happy Birthday Budz!!!
aug 7

'lam ko di mo masyado na-feel ung birthday mo because u've got lot of things to do for school
ok lang yan. as what i've said sayo thru sms, we have the weekend to celebrate (...i hope)
how i wished i was around to personally greet u and give u a hug kasi alam ko, kahit di mo aminin,
malungkot ka during ur birthday... i know i wont be able to take off the sadness and the trouble
that ur feeling but am sure kahit papano, mapapangiti naman kita during that special day..
budz! wag k na malungkot ha..
miss na kita sobra.. can't wait for the finals to finish para di ka na busy
haay! smile ka na.. am just here ha!

Thursday, August 3
i will be away for awhile.. dami lang ginagawa lalu na ngayon lapit na enrollment tapos ill be working na din ulit.. ayusin ko muna 'to guys..
hope lahat kayo ok jan.. di tulad ko super busy..
Kiro sensya na ha...
basta pag ok na.. update ko na blog ko.. w/ a new design na din hopefully and a new sense wen it comes to my posts..
ingat kayo lahat palagi
Wednesday, July 26
am at skul now
ugh! am sooo tired and its sooooo hot outside...
add to that... am fucking hungry, but i just finished a cheeseburger meal at mcdonals... hehehe..

well decided to check who'd been hoppin by...

haaaaay... am going home in abit.. enjoy ur day guys!!!
I just got up. Am having a headache (huhuhu!) Putol-putol kasi tulog. ugh!

Ok lang, thanks to sweet-sweet Juice for doing this tag for me. Surely made me smile even with a headache. Thanks Juice!!!


THE RULES: If you comment on this post, I will..

1. Respond with something random about you.
2. Challenge you to try something.
3. Pick a color that I associate with you.
4. Tell you something I like about you.
5. Tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. Tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. Ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. Pick a song that reminds me of you.

You then must post the same meme and my response in your blog.

Marko by Juice

Thanks for trusting me once to do your layout. Hahah
- yeah, u were so nice abt it.. and the layout u did for me was awesome! thank u so much!

- No partying for a month. Haha kaya?
- huhuhuhu! naman eh! di naman pwede yun!!! iba nalang please??!

blue.. I just see you as a person who likes blue.. pero not sure ha hehe
- yup i like blue, galing talaga!

You're not afraid to show your feelings
- halata ba sa mga post ko? ugh! yeah, minsan nga i feel hindi na tama. masyado na akong emo

Hmm, first memory? When I came to your blog and you made me laugh at that picture when your foot had a cast and sabi mo new Chucks. Haha natawa tlg ako dun.
- hahahaha! yeah, the newest chuck taylor design, hahaha! natuwa naman ako, never thought may napatawa ako with that post

a cat? hehe i don't know why
- am clueless? kasi may pagka pusa-kal ako? hehehe

What's your real name? hehe
- didn't I tell you? ill hit u back at YM

Maneater by Nelly Furtado. Haha I don't know why
- wooohaa! let me dl that song... sorry but i haven't heard that. and why maneater? i don't eat man? huhuhu. feeling ko tuloy para akong canibal? huhuhu.. hehehe

I BElieve
Tuesday, July 25
Random Things
mga kung ano-ano lang during the past three days of staying at home...

miss universe
the top20 finalist were already announced when i started watching the pageant... wala lang, am not really a fan but syempre dapat aware ako cause for sure, magiging center of kwentuhan nanaman 'to when i see my party friends.. hehehe!
before the top 5 where announced, i already had my top 2... Ms. Japan and Ms. Puerto Rico. galing nga because they were the top 2 of the pageant.
"so ibig sabihin ba nito pwede na akong maging judge sa beauty pageant? oh, maganda taste ko sa babae?" hmmm... hehehehe!

ugh! well, there's nothing wrong with the rain, ok nga yun para di masyado mainit, but kung bagyo naman, argg! nakakainis!!! i can't go out, am stuck at home and nabobore ako sobra! add to that, pagnabobore ako, nage-emo crashing ako...
ewan ko, dati, i used to love the rain so much... not because na sususpend classes.. di ko lang sure but before pag-umuulan, mas masaya ako. feeling ko dati, i get energy from the rain but now, its the complete opposite. ugh!

steaks and gravy
since mom was around and she wasnt doing anything, i asked her to teach me how to cook steaks and prepare gravy... why? cause a special person loves steak.. hehehe.. syempre i should know how to cook these stuffs para if ever may chance, pwede kong gawin diba?! heheheh..
one thing i must say, ang hirap mag grill... hehehe...

unti-unti ko ng nararamdaman na bibigay na ang battery ng cellphone ko... kainis! kung kelan wala pa akong money para bumili ng bagong phone chaka pa umaarte batt ko.. di pa naman ako pwede humingi kay mom or kay dad dahil nagpapagoodshot pa ako.. huhuhu!

haaay!? last sunday night, i met up with my badminton friends. after a month of not seeing each other, nagkita kita ulit kami... after we met up sa badminton court, we went straight to megastrip cause one of our friends wanted to treat us for a latenight dinner cause she won a tourney.. hehehe.. buti nalang sa teriyakiboy kami kumain which is one of my faves.. hehehe!
ill post our pics soon...


uggghh... kumakatok dad kong epal...
...... to be continued muna
Speaking of
right after clicking the publish button of my last post.... i remembered that there is a pill that can help me.... hahahaha!!!
why not right?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
think?????? think???? think??????
Newton's Law
today i remember one of Newton's Law. ..

"for every action, there's an equal and opposite reaction"

the last post that i have.... i was so so happy.... and guess what, right now, well actually since lastnight, ive been feeling so alone and depressed... i feel so pathetic feeling this way...

i guess its not good for me to be "sooo happy!?" cause after that i'll be "sooo sad!?!" so dapat, is should be "mejo happy!?!" para "mejo sad?!" lang after... pathetic!!!!


to keep myself from being eaten by me emotions, ive decided to design a new layout for my blog.. its what u are seeing now.. i also changed the title of my blog.. i realized that, yes! i am still a boy... just a boy..

also, its been raining for the past two days... and sad to say, i sooooo hate it when its raining... it adds up to my being an emo crasher..

if only theres a pill available to take whenever i feel like this, i'll buy in lump some.........

haaay!?? i'll just have a smoke break now... i am really not emotionally stable today...
Sunday, July 23
akala ko boring ang weekend ko. pero hindi pala. yun pala