For those people who are coming, please say "hi" to me when you see me toitering around the party. Hehehe!

the events of the past days made me think and wonder.
am i really ready to love & commit again or am i just infatuated by the thought of it all.

ive been talking to my friends about my situation right now and they have the same advice. i agreed to what they wanted me to do. and yeah, i did it. they are right, maybe its not yet my time and am just infatuated, also, maybe he's just not the one for me. maybe we are better off as friends.

i really dont know. everything is so vague right now. i feel so "bobo" to feel this way. argggg!
its true nga that we become the stupidest person when we're in love.

shucks! am being madrama again.

oh well, just to give u an insight to whats happening. i've accepted what he wanted us to be. im taking everything slowly. in a way, we're getting to know each other more with this type of setup. although it hurts at times because what i feel is not reciprocated the way i wanted it to be but i guess its better this way rather than loosing a very special person. i dont wanna loose him.

Let me just hope for that day when everything makes a sudden twist. who knows what will happen. maybe in time, i get to realize and really accept that we are just better of as friends. or maybe in time, he gets to feel the same way that i am feeling.

come what may as what people tell me.
for me it would be "bahala na!!"

Thanks Gabriel for the link.

It made me..... really wonder ??????????????????????????????
Hmmm....

Let's just hope that Cherry Gil doesnt say her famous line to Alyssa after this. Watch it. You'll know why.



Arrrrgggg!
Hahahahahaha!!!

a friend of mine sent me this message. its struck me so much that it made me think alot.


Yes. The best of lovers are the best of friends. And that's the way I wanna go.
You know what I mean..............

this days are one of those rare occassions when i can say that i am happy, really happy.

i really dont know why but there's something about the events in the two days that made me feel this way. i dont want to put them into details but tonight i'll be sleeping with a smile on my face, again... a rare thing to happen for me

now, before i go to bed and rest... i wanna say thank you to those people who i think are the reasons why i am happy today.

a BIG Thanks to.....

I am at peace now.
Thank you and

As you know, I'm trying to keep myself from thinking so much lately so
I tried doing this blogthings I got from a friend's link. It was fun. Try it out just for the heck of it.

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

For a year and four months, I kept myself from believing that I will once again feel my heart beat for one special person. Not because I don’t want to believe but because I was traumatized by the bitter fate of the past relationship that I had.


Unconsciously and as a result of my defense mechanism on any possible form of intimacy, love and commitment, I grew lonely, gloomy and lived a life of agony. The boy that was once filled with joy, laughter and excitement became miserable, hateful and bitter. I became someone no one expected me to become. I became a monster. I grew selfish. I became so nasty and nobody was able to control me. I messed up my life more because I’ve lost hope for a better one. I even tried to end it because I’ve gone tired of it. I didn’t care for nothing else but myself and worst, I tried to buy happiness in tabs, vials and grams. I went down to my lowest point all because of philophobia. I was awful.


But all of those is part of yesterday and yesterday is gone. I’ve started to pick myself up and started redeeming myself. I looked back and I realized that I was lucky enough to be given another chance on starting a brand new life. It was like being born again.


Now my life is back on its tracks. Everything seems to be fine until that day when I felt my heart beat a different rhythm. It was ecstatic and twice as much. It was joyous until I realized that the last time I felt this way was when I met that person who made me crash, burn and be the worst I can be. It scared me.

Yes! The last time I felt this way was when I fell so deeply in love.

I assessed my emotions and carefully rationalized the past. And then I looked at myself on the mirror and asked myself, “Am I ready to love again and take the risk?” I saw a smile form on my face and my eyes glimmer like gems. My heart started beating fast and at last, I was able to answer that question a big YES!


I am ready to face another commitment and take the risk of falling in love again. This time, everything will be taken into moderation. What I’ve learned in the past will be applied carefully for everything to be secure and for everything to work effectively.


There is no doubt that I am in love. And I am taking each step carefully to lessen any possible pain that may come… if not avoid it. I may not know if the person that I love feels that same way but I know that my entire system is functioning on its normal state. I am ready to prove how worthy I am to be loved and cared. And I am ready to give the same amount of love that I am giving myself to that very special person.


What lies ahead is unpredictable. What I am feeling right now may not be reciprocated. But I want to grab this opportunity to thank that very special person who made my heart beat twice as much and express what I truly feel.


You may not see it but you have helped me and brought me so much. You opened my eyes and helped me see things that were kept from me by the bitter fate that I had in the past. You brought back the smile on my face and most importantly you made me feel and believe in love again.


I won’t ask you to love me if it’s not what you heart feels towards me. But please believe me when I say that what I feel towards you is sincere and true.


I swear right now to you, that if we’re given the chance to be together, I will take good care of you and I will love you more than how other people loved you before. My body and soul will only be yours and I will take you to a world where our love constantly grows deeper and deeper. I will carry all the pain and grudges just to make sure that you won’t get hurt and I’ll make sure that here on my arms you’ll be safe.

I'll forever be gratifide with the beauty that you're giving me right now and I hope and pray that we'll be given the chance to share life together.

I am seriously inlove with you and I'll forever will.